I can see how Esau sold his birthright for a pot of stew. It's how I felt this past weekend. The 2 kids that are still at home, were at Bill's parents for 2 nights, and Bill had to work Saturday, so I was home alone. I know the Bible says that it is not good for man to be alone, but I'm pretty sure it applies to a woman as well.
ALL I did was think about what I couldn't have, and it almost sent me over the edge. I didn't have any of the stuff I was craving, griping and complaining about, but the thoughts in my head made me crazy!
Along with the juice fast, I (Debby) am starting to go through a book called "Made to Crave" by Lysa TerKeurst. I know that my overweight issues are not really about food. I have known that I'm an emotional eater. I've been doing it since I was 12 when my dad died. I also know that it will take a lot of work to peel back the layers of pain that are buried down deep inside. And I realized the first layer this past weekend.
I want FOOD. I want it more than engaging with my husband, (unless we are engaging over food), I want it more than working for a clean house, and I want it more than a REAL relationship with Jesus. That is the honest truth. I wanted food this past weekend more than the desire to pray for deliverance from the cravings.
Which leads me to a confession. Last week, I would "cheat" with a few grapes, or maybe a plum. Then I was doing it everyday, and then multiple times a day. How is it cheating if I'm eating fruit you ask? Good question. It's cheating because I made a commitment to juice with Bill for 30 days, and I have broken that commitment. I cheated not only on myself, but also on Bill.
So, here I am again. Admitting failure, but recommitting myself to the juice fast with Bill, for the time remaining. I need so much prayer for strength. I am so weak emotionally and spiritually. But we know that God is so strong. He WILL give the strength needed to complete the fast.
Our Family
Monday, July 18, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
We are still alive...
So, we have now finished one full week of juicing. 7 days. First, the stats that everyone wants to know. As of this morning, Bill weighs 273 lbs, and I weigh 266. That means we have both lost 9 pounds in 7 days.
Let me first say that this is NOT a quick fix. If you are looking at this as a possible way to lose weight fast, you are looking at it for the wrong reason. Even though we have lost weight quick, we are not looking at this as a temporary fix. Not only are we committed to doing the juice fast for 30 days, we are MORE committed to changing our lifestyle. We want that more that just weight loss. Changing our lifestyle is the part we need the most encouragement with.
Last week Thursday evening was our first taste of a juice, and we officially began last week Friday morning. We also left that morning for the weekend in Merritt Island. We packed up our juicer and a cooler full of fruit and veggies, and made our way east. We were on our way to see our boys commission from Teen Missions International's (TMI) 10-day boot camp. They both did well, and are busy serving the Lord in Scotland right now. Here is a link for an update. http://www.teenmissions.org/2011/07/15/scotland-pt-update-11074/
We were also privileged to see the final launch of the space shuttle program. It was a great weekend, except...
Saturday night, Bill had taken a bus with 2 teams to the Miami airport. The teams always leave things on the bus, and Bill brought those items home. Why, I'm not sure. He brought Crunch 'n Munch, Pringles Cheddar cheese, and some other random candy and cracker items. SERIOUSLY??? After 2 full days on the fast, I admit, I caved. I'm not a huge fan of Pringles, and even less of a fan of cheddar cheese flavor, but for some reason, I could not resist. So, I allowed us to have the portion size, which is only 16 chips. Notice that Bill did not have any. Bronia, Simon, Ethan, and I all had our portion size. However, I felt sick to my stomach almost immediately. That was it for cheating for the day. The next day I had 4 chips, and have not cheated in that way since.
I have cheated in the sense that I ate an avacado, and have popped some fresh bing cherries in my mouth from time to time. I just miss the action of chewing. Other than that, it really is just the juice. Many have already asked and I'll answer for those who are wondering. For the most part, I do not feel hunger. I feel a need to chew/eat, only for the sake of doing it. Not because I'm hungry. We have both been surprised by that. Even our kids have said they don't feel hunger by just juicing. The kids are back to eating, but their diet has drastically changed. We hope to make those changes permanent.
Let me first say that this is NOT a quick fix. If you are looking at this as a possible way to lose weight fast, you are looking at it for the wrong reason. Even though we have lost weight quick, we are not looking at this as a temporary fix. Not only are we committed to doing the juice fast for 30 days, we are MORE committed to changing our lifestyle. We want that more that just weight loss. Changing our lifestyle is the part we need the most encouragement with.
Last week Thursday evening was our first taste of a juice, and we officially began last week Friday morning. We also left that morning for the weekend in Merritt Island. We packed up our juicer and a cooler full of fruit and veggies, and made our way east. We were on our way to see our boys commission from Teen Missions International's (TMI) 10-day boot camp. They both did well, and are busy serving the Lord in Scotland right now. Here is a link for an update. http://www.teenmissions.org/2011/07/15/scotland-pt-update-11074/
We were also privileged to see the final launch of the space shuttle program. It was a great weekend, except...
Saturday night, Bill had taken a bus with 2 teams to the Miami airport. The teams always leave things on the bus, and Bill brought those items home. Why, I'm not sure. He brought Crunch 'n Munch, Pringles Cheddar cheese, and some other random candy and cracker items. SERIOUSLY??? After 2 full days on the fast, I admit, I caved. I'm not a huge fan of Pringles, and even less of a fan of cheddar cheese flavor, but for some reason, I could not resist. So, I allowed us to have the portion size, which is only 16 chips. Notice that Bill did not have any. Bronia, Simon, Ethan, and I all had our portion size. However, I felt sick to my stomach almost immediately. That was it for cheating for the day. The next day I had 4 chips, and have not cheated in that way since.
I have cheated in the sense that I ate an avacado, and have popped some fresh bing cherries in my mouth from time to time. I just miss the action of chewing. Other than that, it really is just the juice. Many have already asked and I'll answer for those who are wondering. For the most part, I do not feel hunger. I feel a need to chew/eat, only for the sake of doing it. Not because I'm hungry. We have both been surprised by that. Even our kids have said they don't feel hunger by just juicing. The kids are back to eating, but their diet has drastically changed. We hope to make those changes permanent.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
LAZY, FAT & SICK
So, Bill and I have made quite a decision about our health, and we want to blog about it. When I first asked Bill if I could blog it, he asked me why. One, I said for accountability. Through weekly updates, if people know what we are wanting to do, they will (we hope) encourage us and hold us accountable. We know the verses about our body being a temple. I Cor. 6:19,20 says, "Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body." We have not done that.
And secondly, so we can share this with others. For all the information that is out there, we are SO ignorant about our bodies and health. Bill and I have been informed for a long time, but have just chosen not to do much about it. James 4:17 says, "So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. That is the LAZY.
When we got married, Bill was about 210 lbs, and I was somewhere around 190lbs. We didn't really keep track because we were both quite active, in love and newly married, and not worried about our weight.
Well, like most Americans, we moved further into life, with me having babies, and Bill working in a quick service restaurant. Needless to say, the pounds have added up over our 15+ year marriage. Here is the truth folks. Bill weighs 282, and I weigh 275. That is the FAT.
For the last 18 months or so, for those who have seen Bill, have noticed that he's been walking with a limp. A year or so before that, he had quite a serious slip-and-fall at work. He had gotten some physical therapy at the time, but a while after that ended, the limp appeared. It's in his hip. He is in almost constant pain, yet suffers silently and without complaint. What has made it so much worse he thinks, is his gut. His being overweight is contributing to the pain.
I also have been having chest pain from time to time. When I bend over to pick something up, I will get a sharp pain in my chest when I get back up again, as well as sometimes getting light-headed. I've also seen an increase in adult acne. Not cool. We are 37 and 38 respectively, and should not be in this much pain. That is the SICK.
Last night, on NETFLIX, we watched a documentary called, "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead". We encourage everyone to watch that. We are about to embark on a similar journey. We are going raw. The kids included. We have decided to do a 30-day juice fast, with the kids maybe doing it for a week initially, and continue on in a modified fashion after that. We have to.
This last year that we are here in Florida, before we go off to missions training, we wanted to work on 2 things. Finances and health. We need to save up a lot of money for school, which means getting out of debt and starting a serious savings program. But we weren't really sure where to start with the health. Now that we KNOW, we will DO. Along with the juice fast, we will be starting an exercise program of some kind. EVERYONE will participate in that. This is a family affair, with us as parents leading the way. Please pray for us. And let us know if you want to join us on this journey of health.
This is Bill and I at our heaviest, on our 15th wedding anniversary cruise, February 2011.
And secondly, so we can share this with others. For all the information that is out there, we are SO ignorant about our bodies and health. Bill and I have been informed for a long time, but have just chosen not to do much about it. James 4:17 says, "So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. That is the LAZY.
When we got married, Bill was about 210 lbs, and I was somewhere around 190lbs. We didn't really keep track because we were both quite active, in love and newly married, and not worried about our weight.
Well, like most Americans, we moved further into life, with me having babies, and Bill working in a quick service restaurant. Needless to say, the pounds have added up over our 15+ year marriage. Here is the truth folks. Bill weighs 282, and I weigh 275. That is the FAT.
For the last 18 months or so, for those who have seen Bill, have noticed that he's been walking with a limp. A year or so before that, he had quite a serious slip-and-fall at work. He had gotten some physical therapy at the time, but a while after that ended, the limp appeared. It's in his hip. He is in almost constant pain, yet suffers silently and without complaint. What has made it so much worse he thinks, is his gut. His being overweight is contributing to the pain.
I also have been having chest pain from time to time. When I bend over to pick something up, I will get a sharp pain in my chest when I get back up again, as well as sometimes getting light-headed. I've also seen an increase in adult acne. Not cool. We are 37 and 38 respectively, and should not be in this much pain. That is the SICK.
Last night, on NETFLIX, we watched a documentary called, "Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead". We encourage everyone to watch that. We are about to embark on a similar journey. We are going raw. The kids included. We have decided to do a 30-day juice fast, with the kids maybe doing it for a week initially, and continue on in a modified fashion after that. We have to.
This last year that we are here in Florida, before we go off to missions training, we wanted to work on 2 things. Finances and health. We need to save up a lot of money for school, which means getting out of debt and starting a serious savings program. But we weren't really sure where to start with the health. Now that we KNOW, we will DO. Along with the juice fast, we will be starting an exercise program of some kind. EVERYONE will participate in that. This is a family affair, with us as parents leading the way. Please pray for us. And let us know if you want to join us on this journey of health.
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